Not really sure what I'm doing with my life. I feel like all this time I'm just doing what's expected of me and what I should be wanting to do. I'm so privileged to spend four years at UIUC, and yet, I don't know what I'm doing here. I've just been passing these days by, and time is ticking away, and I don't know what I have to show for them.
I don't know what I'm passionate about, and I feel like my life is falling apart at the seams around me, and I'm just freefalling. I don't know if someone's there to catch me, or if its just rocks below, and it's scaring the shit out of me.
It's only when it's quiet and everyone's gone to bed that I realize how alone I am. I don't know who my support group is, and who's supposed to be there for me. I'm shit at keeping in touch, and I'm shit at maintaining relationships between people.
What the hell am I meant for? God, just tell me so I can stop feeling like I'm wasting people's time and money.
